10/31/23 Fort Collins, Colorado

Today is an off day and also Halloween. Tomorrow we have a show in Wellington, CO. At this point I’m very tired and nearly over comedy. I haven’t had a moment of personal time in 3 or 4 days. The home we’re staying at has cats and I’m so doped up on Benadryl that I can’t think straight. I’m unable to focus, I’m drowsy, I’m weak. The only thing I’ve enjoyed since we got here is the view. We are at the foot of the Rocky Mountains. I feel the same way I do now as I did looking at the Smokies in Sevierville, Tennessee; Emotional and at ease. Looking at the mountains washes away human problems. I know I can run off to the mountains and be lost and be okay with it. It may not be a long survival, but it’d be mine. I’m drained from being in Austin and exhausted from trying to fit in. The land has nothing to offer mem it only takes from me. Unlike the mountains. I hate having a laptop, a phone.

I’ll probably end up staying in tonight. There aren’t any shows in Fort Collins or Denver on Tuesdays. There is a mic at Comedy Works downtown, but that’s a 70 minute drive south and I’d be signing up for standby. Nothing guaranteed and not enough of a pay off to justify nearly 2 and a half hours round trip and consuming gas that needs to get us home. So I might end up handing out candy with people I do not know.

(That’s exactly what happened.)